As you can probably tell, lately more than ever, I have been a “the glass is definately half EMPTY” sort of person. I have been really needing a mood boost. Even though I went to Hawaii this last weekend (which was AMAZING), the happiness just doesn’t last when I get back to my real life (especially having to do with work…). So, last night I was trying to come up with a happy list, positive things in my life that make me happy. Here’s what I got:
1) My balcony garden (I planted the seeds about a month ago and they are doing awesome)
Ok, so I really only got one…because whenever I think of something, I just think of a negative thing to go along. For example: I really love doing my little vintage etsy thing…but…it’s not taking off as quickly as I want OR I have tons of work to do on it that doesn’t get done. For every positive, I think of a negative. And it is going to drive me crazy. Sure, I have my health. And, at least I have a job. And food that is making me fat. And a roof over my head. And a boyfriend that (apparently) loves me. And my parents/siblings are all still alive and healthy. Etc. Etc.
For some reason, I find it really hard to find joy in the “small things”. A window in my very own office is supposed to make up for all the other crap I deal with? How can I help myself?? Lord help me.
hey, it’s me! on my new blog…don’t worry, i still love my very neglected lifeofakatie!
Since the sun doesn’t feel like coming out today in Seattle, I have taken it upon myself to bring the sun to you in the form of some Etsy lovin’. Here are some favorites I found today on my lunch break:
(see more floral vintage goodness here)
(need some new buttons for the cardi you will be wearing today? get them here!)
(in the market for a great summer dress? get it here)
(going to a tea party? you need this dress! go here)
Ahhh, those rays on ma face feel great!
Yours In Sunshine,
Mashed potatoes (with butter)
Glazed carrots (with brown sugar and butter)
Deviled Eggs (with mayonnaise, might as well be butter)
Roasted aparagus (with evoo) (in the toaster oven, bc the real oven caught on fire-no joke!)
Baguette (with butter)
Champagne (no butter)
Normally, I attempt to cook with as little butter and oil as possible, however, seeing as it was a holiday, I decided to go all out.
Do you know how much butter I used? (Julia Child would be proud!)
Consensus: Butter makes everything SO MUCH BETTER!
recently, i posted about my weight watchers challenges….i am sad to say i have fallen OFF the wagon completely! first, i got sick and when i am sick, i don’t even want to THINK about what i am eating!! and then…i never got back on. Bah! anyone knows, one you fall off, it is 10 times harder to get back on track. it’s ok though, i will get back on the track/in the saddle/on the wagon (so many euphemisms!)……………………on monday!
how do you get back on the wagon/on track/in the saddle?
I struggle with my weight. THERE. I said it. Sadly, it is true and unfortunately, I have been struggling with weight for practically my whole life. Ever since 3rd grade when I quit ballet because I thought I was too fat. Yup. I was probably 8 or 9 at the time. What can I say? I grew up in a very food centric home where soda and junk food were treats and parents who didn’t want to deprive their children of anything. Who can blame them for that? Not everyone develops a problem from this, but I did. “Why have one Oreo when I can have 10? Or more?” kind of thinking led to binge eating throughout high school to combat lonliness and sadness of “never having a boyfriend and why do all the boys like her instead of me” which then led to 200 pounds of me around age 18.
Naturally, going away to college helped me drop about 20 pounds, which was a good thing for sure. (Thank god I didn’t GAIN the freshman fifteen!) And around Spring time, my suitemate and I decided to do Weight Watchers together. She had been on the program before and I really had nothing to lose (well, except for the poundage!)
10 weeks later I was at the lowest weight I had been in YEARS! A slim 148! I couldn’t have been happier, I didn’t recognize the girl in the mirror, and I could barely get used to the fact that I wasn’t the “fat girl” in the group anymore!!!
Fast forward 5 years later and I have gained back, oh about 10-15 pounds of that! Bah! And I am on WW for the second time. I have kind of done a few times in betwee, but now I am buckling down. Today was the first day of week 2 and I am determined to do it again! My goal is 15 pounds.
So, basically, the purpose of this post is to put it out there. Hello, universe, I am not giving up again! I know I can do it and you are all my witnesses! No more emotional eating, binge eating, fat related depression here! Stay tuned!